Monday, 22 April 2013

I'm sorry for loving you


translate : i'm sorry. i love you.

Mum : amy ! are you done yet ?
Amy : yea mum. I’m on my way.

            Yea , sure. It’s school day. But what’s worse for a teenage girl Amy is , college. Amy is a beautiful girl with wavy dark hair , dimples on her cheeks and a cute smile. She was packing her stuffs with a lazy mind. Lazy body. Forced ! She didn’t like leaving home. Family , friends and her old school. Including what she says her soul and heart , Carl.

Mum : amy , u better get your legs moving cause you’ll be late for the registration.
Amy : yea yea.

“babe , I’m leaving soon”
*message sent

Still , when she almost finish moving her stuffs into the car , there was no sign of Carl nor his text message.

Amy : *sigh

Till the last bag , still none. When Amy was getting into the car , suddenly..

Carl : Amy !
Amy : *startled
Carl : *panting
Amy : you , you came. I thought you would never come.
Carl : sorry. I didn’t have the time to reply your text. As soon as I read it , I ran as fast as I can here.

Amy smiles. And they bid their goodbyes. The last thing Carl said to Amy was ..

Carl : Until you get out from there , promise to trust each other. Okay ?
Amy : yea , sure. Promise.

And so , Amy left for boarding school and Carl with his own life. Searching for work here and there. They promised to get marry as soon as Amy finished her study. Carl , a 178cm guy with a dark pointy hair and a pair of smiling eyes , believed in her. His trust never fade.

In college , of course , Amy met a lot of new people. She was quite popular at college. With her good grades and her pretty face. A lot of guys tried to get her attention. But in her mind was always Carl.

Meanwhile Carl , with no plans to pursue his studies , works in a workshop.


Daniel : dude , she’s hot. *pointing to Amy
Joe : hey hey. Calm down dude. I know you got issue with Lysa. But please , stay cool man. You don’t think that ..
Daniel : what ? we cant be friends ?
Joe : but still , I think ..

Daniel , on the other side was a tall , brown colored hair guy. Everyone in the college knows he’s with Lysa. The what they say ? Goddess of the school. A really beautiful young lady , with a fair skin and long straight hair. They didn’t understand why she picked Daniel when there’s a lot more other guys who’s better than him.

Daniel : Hi. *while leaning on the locker looking straight into Amy’s eyes.
Amy : er .. hi. *a bit startled
Daniel : I never seen you before. Are you new ?
Amy : yes. I just transferred last month. Why ?
Daniel : nothing. I’m Daniel. What’s your name ?
Amy : Amy. Em , sorry. I’m late for my next class. Catch with you later.

And so , Amy rushes to her class. She didn’t really want to get involve with Daniel. She really misses Carl and she’ll never forget what Carl said to her. But , they seems to be getting further and further from each other. She thought that Carl has another girl and they always fight because of that.

Joe : so ?
Daniel : tug of war bro.
Joe : means ?
Daniel : just wait and see.

Soon , the news spread. What news ? that Lysa was going to transfer.

Daniel : why didn’t u tell me earlier ?
Lysa : I was going to tell u , but ..
Daniel : I .. I’ll miss you.
Lysa : I know. I will too. Don’t worry. We can always meet outside.
Daniel : yea. I hope so.

After Lysa was gone , Daniel has gotten much naughtier. He tried his best to approach Amy. And there’s one time. When Amy had a big fight with Carl.

Daniel : Hi.
Amy : it’s you again. Where’s Lysa ?

But Amy was not really in the mood to talk.

Daniel : She transferred. Hey , why the sad face ?
Amy : non of your business okay ?
Daniel : chill. Wanna grab lunch together ?

In Amy’s mind was Carl. She misunderstood Carl had another girlfriend. That’s why they fight. And so , their game begins.

Amy : yea sure. Why not ?

Amy and Daniel got closer with each other. Sending text messages everyday. They thought it was friendship between them. But it was something else.

But still , Amy is still with Carl. While Daniel is with Lysa.
The relationship between Amy and Daniel has gone out of control.

One day , Carl was visiting Amy at her college. He wanted to make things better. With the money he gathered , he bought Amy a necklace. For her birthday. He still remembers a long time ago. When he was out with Amy. They passed by a jewelery shop. Amy kept talking about a necklace she saw in the shop. But too bad , Carl didn’t have the money to buy her that necklace.

With a happy face , riding his motorcycle , he made his way to Amy’s college. When he arrived in front of the college , he got his eyes nearly popped out.

Amy was walking together with Daniel , going into a white Mercedes. Carl didn’t want to jump into conclusions. So he dialed Amy’s number.

*Carl calling

She answered. There was a long silence before Amy started the conversation.

Amy : hey.
Carl : Hey. Em , where are you ?

Carl was holding his feelings so bad. His tears and everything.

Amy : me ? at college. Why ?
Carl : I , I came to see you.
Amy : sorry Carl. I have class after this. Can’t you come tomorrow ?
Carl : Stop it Amy. I’m in front of your college now.
Amy : *startled
            Wh .. where ?

Then she turned around to find Carl. And there he is. Standing like a loner. Amy dropped her phone.

Daniel : why ? what’s wrong ? who was that ?

That was the time where Amy have to make a choice. Yes , she loves Carl. But their future didn’t seem bright for her. But it was different for Daniel , he has almost everything.

Amy : Nothing. Just , go.

Carl saw the white Mercedes making its move. His tear came out. At last. Now he understands the pain. He finally felt it.

One week. No calls. No text messages from Carl. Amy was quite worry.

Joe : yo dude. What happened with Lysa ? are u guys still together ?
Daniel : yea , of course.
Joe : hey , but , everyone here thought u’re with Amy. Aren’t you guys in that kind of relationship ?
Daniel : I don’t know. I can’t make a choice.

“we’re over”

Amy was quite shock to see the text message from Carl. She cried. Feeling a lot of regrets in her heart.

A week later , Amy found out from her mother that Carl has a new person. Than she felt betrayed. Her mother blames it all on Carl. When her daughter was the cause of everything.

Carl still loves Amy though. Shery was just a way to forget her. But , it was different for Amy. He forgets Carl so easily. Not knowing whether Daniel and Lysa are still together or not.

Of course Lysa and Daniel are still together. Lysa had her hopes high for Daniel. She was too loyal. Too good for him ! How can he just act like that ..

2 months. Daniel is now together with Amy. But for some reason , Daniel was tired with Amy. He’s sick for Amy’s childish attitude which only Carl understands. He decided to leave her.

Amy : but why ? u said that ..
Daniel : sorry Amy. But the only person I love , *sigh. Is Lysa

Huge mental breakdown for Amy.

Amy : I HATE YOU !
Daniel : hate me all u want Amy. But don’t u think u’re guilty too ? I know Carl. I know everything. Why did you choose me ?
Amy : *crying. I , I don’t know.
Daniel : sorry but , this is it.

And off he goes. Leaving Amy behind. Amy dropped on her knees , crying. Regretting. He lost Carl. And now Daniel. It’s all her fault. For not trusting. Blinded by money. Blinded by something which is not even love.

She tried to get in touch with Carl. Even though Carl still can’t forget her , but he cant forgive her.

Mid semester break. Amy , with regrets , finally coming home. When she arrives ..

Mum : Amy dear. Someone left you this parcel 2 months ago.
Amy : what ? why didn’t you post it to my college ?
Mum : I didn’t know if it was important or not. Stop complaining. Open it.

When she opened it ..
It was the necklace Carl bought her. With a note.

“happy birthday Amy. I love you and I still do. I tried to trust you , I tried so hard. But you never did. I hope you’re happy – Carl”

She dropped on her knees. Crying again. Regretting everything. But it was too late. TOO LATE FOR  EVERYTHING.

:: moral value : TRUST YOUR PARTNER AND DON’T BE BLINDED BY MONEY J

this is only a story. not related to those who are still living or dead ^^

RED WEDDING


I thought that marriage would make a difference for me. Finally meeting someone that can make me happy , that’s a really wonderful thing for me. I met Jason 6 years ago. He was tall , blonde and has this beautiful blue eyes. His body was good in shape and when he smiles , his dimples could have melt any girls heart. We were attending the same college. He was a senior which is 2 years older than me. We decided to get married after I graduated. He got his work. I got mine. And we decided to buy our own house. We were happy until this house brought a lot of tragedy for me.

While moving in ..

Jason : I’m glad that we have our own house now.
Me : Yea. I didn’t think that we’ll make it this far.

Right beside our house was another newlywed. They moved in last month. Earlier than we do. Something just came into my mind.

Me : Hey. Hun , should we invite our neighbor to come and have dinner with us tonight ?
Jason : yea. Sure. It would be fine.

And so , I knocked their front door hoping for an answer. A beautiful lady came to open the door. She was quite skinny , and has this beautiful wavy blonde hair.

Me : Hi.
Riley : Hi.

And we both shake hands with each other.

Me : sorry for disturbing.
Riley : no , no. it’s okay. What brings you here ?
Me : oh yea. I’m Lydia. Lydia Norman. Me and my husband just moved in here. So , we decided to invite you and your husband for dinner tonight. Will that be okay with you ?
Riley : Riley. uhm. I don’t ..
Patrick : We’ll go. *smiles

Patrick was tall. About Jason’s height. Dark pointy hair. He seems quite a strong guy for his muscles.

Me : well then. 8pm ?
Patrick : sure , thanks for inviting.
Me : o .. kay. See you guys tonight then.

I smiled and said goodbye. When I was leaving their house , I noticed that when I was talking with Riley , there’s a sign that she was hit before. A big bruise on her neck and arms. Many thoughts came into mind. Her husband was indeed strange too.

After sorting our things out , I cooked dinner while Jason went to handle some work. That night , Riley and her husband , Patrick came right on time. Just like they said. I opened the door for them and invited them to sit down. After that , I called Jason to come downstairs to join us.

When Jason came down , Riley seems to be startled a bit. And so as Jason. They met eye to eye. And I noticed something strange.

Patrick : so , you guys are newlyweds ?
Me : yea. We just moved in today.
Patrick : where did you guys meet ?

I told him the college that we both attend to.

Patrick : that’s the college where Riley attended before. What a coincidence huh ?

Right then , I noticed that Riley and Jason exchanging looks at each other.

Patrick : so do you know my wife ?

Asking the question to Jason. I looked at Jason. Waiting for an answer.

Jason : No. I’ve never seen her before.
Patrick : really ? well that’s strange. Cause from what I know , her ex boyfriend’s name was Jason.

I was quite shocked with the statement. Riley and Jason seems to be startled.

Riley : Patrick , stop.
Patrick : I really thought that it was you. It is right ?

Jason didn’t give an answer. I couldn’t even interfere because I didn’t know anything.

Riley : Patrick , please.
Patrick : seems like your wife don’t have any clue huh ? why didn’t you tell her ?
Riley : Patrick !
Patrick : what ?!

Jason : this dinner is over.

Jason stood up and went upstairs. Everyone was shocked.

Riley : sorry. I’m going home.
Patrick : hey hey. Where are you going ?
Patrick : uhm. Thanks for dinner.

I was puzzled. Didn’t know what to do. Who to believe. Patrick seems to be haunted by the past and seems to lost his mind whatsoever.

After cleaning up the table , I went to see Jason.

Me : hey.
Jason : hey.
Me : you’re okay ?
Jason : I’m fine.
Me : what was that all about ?
Jason : nothing. That ..
Me : tell me Jason. It’s not like I’ve known you for 2 days or so.
Jason : okay. I admit that she’s my ex. But that was a long time ago. Okay ?
Me : So why did you say that u didn’t know her ?
Jason : I , I don’t know okay. It just came out.
Me : what ? just came out ? easy for you to say.
Jason : hey hey. Let’s not talk about this okay. Forget it. That was all in the past. We have nothing to do with each other now. I love you.

He hug me and kissed me gently on the lips.

What we didn’t know is , at Riley and Patrick’s house ..

Patrick : why did you suddenly leave huh ?
Riley : why did you have to bring up the topic ?
Patrick : it’s him right ? Jason ?
Riley : stop it Patrick. It’s all in the past.
Patrick : I was right , wasn’t I ?
Riley : I’m going to sleep.

Suddenly , Patrick’s hand land on Riley’s cheek. I don’t know for how many times did that hand land on Riley’s soft body. What I know is , Riley was abused.

The next day , Jason was on his off day while I went to work. Jason saw Riley moving some stuffs outside her house.

Jason : hey , want some help ?
Riley : no. I don’t need your help.
Jason : o .. kay. Chill. I was just trying to help.

Riley was somehow avoiding Jason in any way. Luckily , Patrick was not home that day.

While moving a heavy box , Riley’s foot slipped on the stairs and dropping the box. Hurting herself. Jason with such manners went to help Riley out. Of course because he was feeling rather responsible for her.

Jason : I offered you a hand you know. *while moving the box inside the house

Riley can’t seem to say anything.

Riley : You shouldn’t be here you know.
Jason : let me look at that arm.

Riley had a cut on her right arm.

Jason : where did you put your first aid ?
Riley : at the kitchen. You really shouldn’t do this. Please , Jason.

But Jason just ignored her. After putting some iodine on the cut .. Jason noticed the bruised on Riley’s body.

Jason : what happened to you ?
Riley : *quickly hiding her bruises.
Jason : tell me Riley. Patrick ?
Riley : you should really go you know.
Jason : not until you tell me what happened.
Riley : okay. He did hit me ! satisfied ?
Jason : that guy .. !
Riley : stop. He’ll be really pissed off if he knows you’re here.

Riley force Jason to leave the house. Before Patrick gets back. Or they’ll both be in big trouble.

But then ..

Patrick : what’s the meaning of this ?
Riley : no , no. it’s not what u think. He was just ..
Patrick : was just what huh ? I shouldn’t have trust you , b***h !

And he hit her wife. Again.

Jason : yo , dude. That’s not how u call your wife. I was just helping her. You should listen to her.
Patrick : listen to what ?! get out before I hit you too.

Jason was trying to protect Riley. But Patrick was too strong for him. And he ended getting force to leave house anyway. I was standing there. At our front house. Watching everything.

I too , misunderstood. So I made my way in , feeling hurt.

Jason : no , no. Lydia. Not you too.

Jason was trying to calm me down. i locked the room. Crying alone. Meanwhile in Riley and Patrick’s house ..

Patrick was extremely angry. The house was in a big mess. Everything was not under control. I heard everything. The screams , the cries , the chaos. Jason finally broke our bedroom’s door and quickly gave me a hug.

Jason : I’m , I’m sorry babe. It was all a misunderstanding. I was helping her because she was hurt. You , you trust me don’t you ?

All I can do was feeling afraid , still crying. But for some reason , I trust my husband. Maybe because I love him too much. And I know my husband.

The next day , I was out again. We both were. But Jason got back into our house to fetch something he forgot. And he heard someone was crying. Crying for help. From the other side of the wall. There’s a mirror on the wall. Feeling curious , he broke the mirror. I didn’t know our house was connected to Riley and Patrick’s house. And there he saw Riley. On her knees , crying. Bruises all over her body. Blood shedding.

Jason : oh my God , what did Patrick do to you ?!
Riley : I’m scared Jason. Take me out from this house.

So he brought Riley to our house. Through the connected secret doors. Jason tried to calm Riley down , and finally she fell asleep. They accidently fell asleep together , on OUR bed.

I arrived home. Tired from work. When I saw Patrick heading to our house with a KNIFE in his hand. Somehow I figured out the situation. I hurriedly lock the door. Every windows and doors in the house. And finally making my way to our bedroom. Yes , it was just as I thought. But this time , I decided to trust my husband. And not making any hasty conclusions.

Jason and Riley were shocked to see that I was there.

Jason : Lydia , I can explain.
Me : Yea , I trust you. But you’re in trouble now.
Jason : what ? why ?

A fierce knock on the door.

Riley : he’s here. He’s here to get me.
Jason : who’s here ?
Me : Patrick. With a knife in his hands.

A sudden outburst from downstairs.

Me : damn it.

And I end up going to my husband. Feeling a lot afraid.

Patrick : so here you are. With your boyfriend.
Jason : Patrick , calm down. put down that knife you’re holding.
Patrick : Shut up ! I’m going to kill both of you.

I was crying silently.

Patrick : you better stay out of this. We’re both in the same situation now.

He said that to me.

Me : no we’re not Patrick. I trusted my husband , you didn’t.

Jason was touched at my words. Indeed , he truly loves me , and was just trying to protect Riley. I finally understand that.

Patrick : shut up !

With the knife in his hand , he approached Jason.

I tried to stopped him but then he pointed the knife towards me.
He tried to approach them again. I tried to stop him. But finally , feeling too infuriated , he stab me on my stomach. And letting go of the knife.

He approached Riley. I don’t know what he’s going to do , but I saw I chance there.

Jason : Lydia ! Lydia , are you okay ? *holding my stomach
Lydia : I’m fine. But ..

I passed him the knife. I know that he knows the right thing to do now.

Jason stabbed Patrick right on the forehead. That wouldn’t kill him ? would it ?

We quickly get out from the house. We called the police and the ambulance. Patrick died due to loss of blood. The knife went right into his brain. It was said as an act of defense so , Jason didn’t get caught by the police. I would never forget that tragic story. Very tragic. We quickly moved out of the house then. Riley went back to her family. It turns out that they didn’t know that she was abused by her own husband.

:: this story was based on my dream last night. Hee. Thanks for reading J